I have sms Ann Chee before I wrote this. OMG, I never feel so free and happy for the last few months... The first thing I do after my final decision was to post a blog entries to tell the whole world. I know it's unnessary but it's just come to my mind to do so...

     On Wednesday and Thursday night, I having my insommia... I don't really know why. Well, I always have feeling of something when he gone wrong or something but insommia happen when there is something happen that make me wrong about him. A night before the broke up, I already dream of him about breaking up. I still remeber that scene in my dream. He is standing in the opposite road with another girl while me looking at him flirting with the other guy. I don't know why AC and CW is there. But, this feeling just come back on Wednesday night ( the first night of imsommia ) That night I didn't on my laptop to online but just to rest until I fall asleep...

      On Thursday night, I really can't sleep at all. I really can't sleep. About 2.00 am in the morning, I on my laptop and announce to the world that I'm having imsommia in facebook for no reasom. OMG, I do things without reason. To my surprise I saw his status changes from being single to in a relationship with someone named Chow... I didn't feel sad as I expected fromy myself. I actually confused... Am I still feeling sad??? I didn't get my answer at that moment. I didn't sleep that night thinking of that question in my head. I really confused of my feeling inside me. Besides that, I ask whether should I hate him or not. Should I be mad? No answer from my heart. NO ANSWER????

       But, even so Lim Hui Hui still cry in school. Not my fault, AC ask me to sleep and I try to sleep and I burst into small tears for awhile but it's nothing. Haha... It's AC fault lah... She pass me the tissue and the tissue look pathetic without me using it right??? So yeah... It's takes about 15 minutes only for the entired process.

        Today the 16th of October 2009, Friday, Lim Hui Hui has get to answer to everyone that she is fine. It's finally over. Well, it's not a bad thing that he is having his life back and he is happy about it. And as Ipromised to him that I won't be mad or jeolous if he with someone else. Well, I'm not even sure what I really say to him about that. Who cares?? Actually, I dont really remember much things I say to him. Anyway, it's not a bad news to me. OMG, in other word I must thanks him. Haha... I know I'm weird. Think of it in a positive way, he creates a better social setting in my life and it make me feel even more clear about the relation in life and easier for me to handled my heart. Now, it's depends on me to set the time to cure and everything tells me that I am fine now. Thank you very much...

         Oh, congratulation to the new couple. It's from the bottom of my heart. I am really happy for you two. This is not a joke and I repeat it again. This is not a joke. Correction this is really not a joke. Haha... Actually, I want to post something on him wall but it won't make him feel good. It's like the last time I sent a sms to wish him happy birthday that time and he just say " I rather you just wish me in facebook".. Whatever lah... Didn't even treat as him sister also... Didn't even say thank you...Sigh... He don't want me to wish him then nevermind lor. Haha...So yeah, I post this entries also to tell my friends I am fine. Haha... Thanks Omma, AC, Carmen and CW. Love you all. Oh, forget about Jill and Ashley. You guys advised is equally useful for me to mend my heart. Thank you very much...

           To celebrate my new life, I will creates another blog in blogspot. Maybe after SPM lah. And this blog is just my past and it's a memory I would love to keep because it's something which teaches me to be strong and understanding and patients. I love God for giving me a life which like a bed or roses but with some thorn under it to make me realise there is obstacle to test me to be a truely human.

           Omma, I hope you would think I am crazy or being so selfless again. Actually, I'm just being selfish to make myself more happier. I won't want to make myself being unhappy all the time and mad at him. And promise me Omma not to call him a jerk because he is not. And the sms I sent you was to ensure that you don't over react. I'm sure now you will scold me... Haha.... Sorry lah Omma, I win you for being more chill and patient than you. Haha... Like what my sis say... Patient makes perfect. Love ya...

p.s The old Hui Hui that you guys miss is back.

p.s.s Why think of something you have missed??? Why not something you have achieve???

p.s.s.s Wishes you two to be together forever... Jie Jie and Borhter Ian

Dear All Heartbreaking People,

     Don't be upset lah. Enough adi lah. So much crying for months also paid up all the debt for your ex. That's what I usually say to people. Crying after a breakup is as long as you two being together like paying debt. Very true but can be improve.

      Sigh. I know people that it's really suffering and wanting-to-die feeling but what if it's over???Start promising yourself to be tougher than him. Start to wake up. Start to stand again. Start to calm yourself whenever you cry again. Start scolding yourself not to cry or start loving yourself more.

      But, I came across some people who can immediately hate the other party as they broke up. It's a very unusual situation. I mean how can you hate anyone in anyone in your lve world???Even if he did anything wrong or makes you really hurt or doing anything you hate. It's just hard to hate for me even to any other people in the world. I perfer just to forgive whatever people do wrong. Remember there is no wrong or right in a relationship. Respect other decision if you really love him.

     Well, it's just very illogical lah that you hate that person. I mean you say you love him and after sometime or after breaking up, there is a hatred in you toward him???This will possibly happen if you don't mean what you say about loving him. That makes you a meaner person.

      I hope I'm right about that. For me, every words to him is like promises and true. When you say you love him forever, then lov him forever. " Break up " mean separation of two parties physically but not mentally. If it's mentally, you should band yourself on the wall to forget him completelyor stay coma.

     After breaking up, your love will be easier or simpler towards him. Now, both of you are determine that you two are not suit as lover than just friends. As friend, you know there is no chance you would be his second time dummy. That actually reduce your missing toward him in a way too. It's always normal of missing old time friends or someone who is once so close to you.

     As I was saying about loving him forever, it's not wrong right??? Sending wishes... Helping him when he needs your help... Making sure he is fine... Comfort him when he sad... Cheer him up... Visit him when he's sick... Sudden surprise... Etc...

     At least, that make you happier in some way. Don't know why but it make me feel this relationship is not a failure but more successful and more determine with your feeling toward each other. Happy bonding...

Love,

Justine

        The entired day in library... Study history and the only person I face the most is a piece of Zen cake... Sorry lah....It's Hew Zen, my future cousin-in-law... Ok, two people will hit me with Success Book when they saw this...

        So yeah... Nothing very special happen at the library cause it's the library... EXCEPT Zen cake malu-malu incident... Not that I wanna blog about him and all. Its just the only thing stupid that happen. Its start when he carving for his lunch as he wait until the rain stop... So, he run to McD to have his lunch and grab me an apple pie...Hurray... Sit there without much work done to have an apple pie.Haha... And its lucky that I order apple pie from him. Because when he is bad... He realise there is no spoon for his Chocolate Sundae.

         No spoon for Sundae!!! This is where the creative me come in action... What a sciencetist!!! Unlike that cake... You know how I to make an immediate environment-friendly spoon. Haha... Use my apple pie cover. The hard paper type...Yeah. Fold it and use as spoon. It works... I don't get why is it embrassing??? It's actually more embrassing when he hide here and there to eat his ice-cream... Thats all...

      Second day...Total boredom...I have to stay in my room for the whole day. And dad only brought Chee Cheong Fun for breakfast and left 3 bread for me for the rest of the day.. Sigh.. Which mean I felt damn hungry the entired day...

      Well, actually not so hungry... Cause its the first day. Mum check on me often and call up. So, I practically sitting in front of my screen onlining, taking temperature, eating vitamin C, drinking water, drinking more water, drink more more water and bloat with water instead. So yeah... Boring day.. So sleep lor...

       When mum they all came back, I was damn happy liao.. But, I have to wear mask if Iwanna be in my mum room or sis room. Come on everyone think I'm contagious. So sad... Yamuna, you owe me.

       Nvm lah, I takes a lot of photo at night cause sis bring our camera back from school...( not her camera...mine )  So, I pose with my mask on in her room.

( She studying for ART )

( The egypt princess who can sits in front of the screen the whole day and she put in her blog that she is a poor princess which stuck in a tall castle who waitng for her prince.. Nonsense )

   Yesterday on 12: 34 pm 56s, 7/8/09... It was the 123456789 combination...Okay, this is too random for an entry. Nevermind, just to let you all know what I did...

     It was Biology class of Jasminder. What me and AC do the whole lesson is looking at the Jaspreet's watch since it's very accurate. I mean it tally to the school clock. So yeah... The last row in Bio class is like damn excited. Haha... Oh, this Amala forget the time. I have to shout her name and tell her and she still so blurr. Because we making such an event that teacher think we are weird. Then, she realize it's that time. Haha... So yeah. The class didnt much care lah. Just know it and that's it. Didnt even countdown. But, at least me and AC got countdown and make wishes.

     I realise that I love numbered time a lot. 10.00 o'clock everytime I saw it was someone miss you time. Then, 12.00 is like got ghost behind me time. ( I make just make this up cause I really think got ghost when I stay up late ) Even my birthday time is on 12.12 pm, 3/4/92. Kinda nice number lah. But, not as best as my uncle birthday today. OMG, today is 8 of August. Happy birthday, Uncle Ho Ho... And happy birthday to you too, Maggie. Hope you get all A's for SPM lah. Sure she will like that. Haha...

( AC, I feel bad when my entry is so short. It's like my life is so not fun with description. I might change to long speech again for the next entry. Who cares. It's my blog... I read it too kay. Haha )